yay! retests are over for me man.

they were horrible.

ohkay luh, like they're probably easier to some people but yeah... so screwed up for me man.

like amath right, the first part was ohkay but the last section I totally gave up and so 1hr before the thing ended, I decided to stop staring at the paper blankly (like what I did for PHysics) and go sleep.

THHHHHHEEEENNNN, that xh kicked my chair hard. till i woke up. then he was like mouthing to me whether I know how to do or something.

was rather annoyed cause i didnt know how to do most questions as well.

left 10mins before the paper ended. gave up ler lah T.T like stoning and staring blankly for another 10mins wont do me any good luh. not like i'll suddenly gain enlightenment or something hur.

so i left.

xh and shuan were giving me that STUN, ARE YOU FOR REAL look. left them to stare at their papers blankly too. haha. well, at least xh was.

I'm not being pessimistic and all. Like how can I pass if I dont even know like how to do half of the paper? like for amath, i left like almost 50% of the stuff unfinished.

i bet i'll be the only one who'd be force to drop subs and all.

like, bx they all got like onghh to help them. and im. just. screwed.

:(

no use crying over split milk now.

im waywayway beyond redemption.
its no use.

im just y'know, intellectually inferior. hur.

but even though i did really badly for my re-tests and all, im just so damn glad its over.

anyway, went to justin's house to film and all. heehees!

ohkay like my juniors are so mean! they totally raided my phone and bluetoothed pictures of ME to their phone. and yeah, they took like pics of me too. gosh, they're all obsessed.

>:(

aha! but i got like GNGZXA's primary sch pic in my phone thanks to them though. and he looks like some poor kid who hasnt eaten for 1month or something! aha!

but he's so nice luh. cause he did carry out his promise.
*swoooons*

ohkay i. cant. wait.

heard that grad night, (wonder why they call it prom when its just... :/)
anyway, heard that grad night was lousy. like they have lousy taste in music. they played like sexyback 4times. ._.

seriously hope that grad night for us next year would be fun and and and we'll have songs like mmm 5colours In Her Hair or something.

though that song is like so 5 years ago, its so damn fun to dance to lah

kk me to be his fashion consultant or something for his grad night. lw too.

blah.

I feel so ... weirded-out.

anyway he was like: maybe i should wear something purple and green, y'know, to be different.

and I went like: omg? you wanna go as barney?

mmm ohkay. I shall go rejoice and read fics and watch some tv and y'know.
SLACK (:

or do something extreme and and and... ahaha

carpe diem.

0725.

Chem was effing hard.
*groans and moans*

gngzxa was really nice, like he smsed me to jiayou and not to panic and all. said i was prepared and everything.

read that sms after the sick re-test so I felt really frustrated.

like everyone's counting on me to do better and yeah, in the end, its just another screw-up.

I think they're gonna make me drop a Science subject.

*wails and wails*

>:(

eeyerrr. I feel half dead.

I dont feel like mugging anymore cause like whats the point, im gonna end up failing anyways.

>:(

today's like grad night and im supposed to be on filming duty but because of these effing retests, I cant go and all and all and all and all -

*tears hair and wails*

GNGZXA says he'll carry out his promise of _____ if I go study. And if I dont he wont show me ______.



last chance to ________ and im forced to give it up.

rawr.

I'm going crazy over


... imma gonna mug now cause even though there's no point... I wanna see _____!

GNGZXA! I'm gonna go study now so you must show me ____ kay !

: (

i so miss you.

1232-

Hello world, im feeling super jealous cause zhiyun like just topped the school. She got 273 and everyone is bloody happy.

boo.



im still struggling to survive here.


oh yeah. i slept 14hrs (: felt damn hungry caused i skipped dinner. too busy zzing.


mmm, the small chat I had with _ was really refreshing.
gosh, i really need someone like that to talk to more often. Like usually I would go to Jie to rant, but sometimes I need someone like _ y'know.

someone close to me, but so not close at all. Like a stranger. So I can trust that _ wont go bitching off to someone else hur.

ohkayohkay. cca was =O

mmm like marcus was like: all your fault all your fault
when it wasnt really my fault cause for the first time, no one wanted to go home

FLL peeps wanted to stay overnight. StrITwise in damn big trouble. I had to paint for them. pfft.

and everyone like surrounded me and scrutinised my every movement. damn embarrassing cause my strokes were big fat and clumsy.

pfft, im gonna fail art next year.

they're still not done yet.
goodgame man.

and they're all crazy today. Like jeffry kept his earphones on, and singing crazy songs.

like he sang SARANGHAEYO to QIEN. and he blasted that song out loud. dedicated it to qi en i supposed.

like wth. for noobs, saranghaeyo means I love you in korean or something.

Qi en, too freaked out to feel irritated, blasted some MrBrown stuff.

._. i just felt >.>

oh yeah. and jeffry chased him around the whole place trying to hug him.

bunch of immature brats. pfft xP

liang hui was like: mei you yisheng, wo bu nen shui.
then the whole fll peeps were like : i want yisheng...

shudders. the whole place is turning gay.

yisheng uh, your crew is missing you so so so terribly luh right.

bleugh.

kay.

today was ultra lame

during 1st shift-lunch, leroy grabbed like 11 bk hats.



decided to lose the guys so we walked into tangs lingerie section to shake them off. and ran for it. went into GAPS to seek shelter.



hello jeffry.

 

were talking about how this pic will spark off debates and all those stuff and all. like child labour, walking advertisements, moral issues and all those blah. and how jeffry's gonna get hired by BK to do advertising. hurhur.



then on our way back, walked into 2nd shift. things went according to plan.
guys grabbed marcus, the others whipped out hp, jeffry dump a BK hat on his head and click!

those interested in the pic can find jiali, mel or me.

cant upload it. >:(
but can blutetooth it to ya (:<



here's SEE, with the BK hat. like when we ran into them, we were all wearing BK hats. so they went off and came back with BK hats too.

bunch of weirdos hur.

(:

yeah then Edwin, Yunzheng and marcus kept wearing the hat and calling themselves "kings" or something. then screwed everyone by saying they have to obey or something cause they have the hats so they're kings.

crazy.



marcus the 'king' screwing malcolm.

cause malcolm refused to go back to the fll room.

he was locked up in there afterwards, by the "three kings", who guarded the locked door for the rest of the cca session ._.



the security guard wanted his picture taken too. was so happy to be a king for a few seconds.

even boasted to some other students passing by.

what a crazy, crazy day.

hor, bx?



0939

Songyan: he's an earthworm
Me: But he's a cute earthworm
Songyan: but he's still an earthworm
Me: And he's a HOT earthworm

ahaha

arguing over Channing Tatum

blah. that show is hot

hothothothot.

I cant take the music out of my head now. gosh.

so hot.

If I had the money and the time, I'd watch it again.

oh sighs.

got into an argument yesterday so I got really frustrated and all, and I locked them out.
eventually I got sick of all knockings luh.

and I lied that I took my pills so I had to go sleep.

Its just so messed up now I dont know where to start.
I hope that you're happy, now that you're slowly taking everything away from me. just like you always do.

Everyone's just really fed up with me nowadays y'know.

sigh ohkay. I've decided not to go Interact camp since I've to "get my piorities right" hur.

mr soh and chyiwei also told me not to go too... said kwanki's wrath is nothing compared to dropping subjects + llm's wrath.

Anyway, I'm starting to hate that word,'Piorities'.

And how everyone everyone everyone is constantly constantly constantly telling me to get them right.

I know where my piorities are, thank you very much.

I dont know bout you but I'm so not a quitter. I dont start things and just leave them hanging y'know. Like what most people do.

I like to finish my job. And I do it good.

That's my piority.

It doesnt matter what task. As long as it matters to me, I'll do it good.

MY piorities are not YOUR piorities. I have mine. You have Yours. Me. You. You. Me.
hell, that sounds like one of marcus/ernest screwed-speeches.

But yeah, back to the point. I'm compromising. I'm working hard.

Despite the lil, teensyweeny fact that I'm lousy at stuff I dont like.

The least you can do, is to give me credit for my effort.

thanks for nothing.

three cheers for tyranny
unapologetic apathy


here's to more sleep.

0545

No no no no.
I feel like shouting

I dont understand.

so much hate so much hate so much hate.

that we can just live without

it was the lie in the crowd
that said wont feel a thing

hur mcr. spent the whole day listening to them over and over and over again.

Disenchanted -

ANDDDDDD
i'm weirdly obsessed with the instant the music from the drums and the guitar, that starts playing right on: "it was the roar in the crowd/that gave us heartache to sing"

and and and the background voices, the echos, that went like:
if im so wrong,
SO WRONG SO WROOOOOOONG
how can you listen all NIGHT longggg
allnight LONG, NIGHT LOOOOOONGGGG

and i feel like shouting and screaming
and pulling and thrashing about
like how does one effing hour make a diff
like how I know I'm right and you're just plain wrong. like everything's different now.
hard work has never paid off. Not for me.

but im doing all these just to please you hur.

its just plain pinking wrong.

i know im getting to old for tears and all. and with everyone labelling me as emo. and all and all and all
sometimes its just hard to get through the day
when you cant express what you really feel because you dont know how to, because you're afraid to. Afraid of the judgemental world and its great,great opinions.

(sorry, digression)
see. when i get all freaked, my brain doesnt really function as well. not that it was well to begin with but anyway. do forgive me for being so incoherent.

like they say it'll end next year. but it wont. the sort-of pressure and all will follow me throughout.
you cant fool me. there isnt any 'end' or even a 'brief respite'
it'll just go on and on and on.

how can you expect me to be OH SO PASSIONATE about something I dont even like. I'm sorry, I cant work this way.

but if its what everyone wants from me, then what I want really doesnt matter anymore hur.
I'll work. I'll mug. Just dont expect me to have this uhhh as _ puts it "craving for success"

i just need to scream.


they really should have a room somewhere where you can just scream to vent your frustrations and all.

God, I think I need to see a shrink.

like why doesnt anyone understand. understand everything.
i wish everyone can see the world through my eyes hur.

like when people start ranting to me, i'd be like oh ohkay and I'll listen and just... its just sometimes I wanna scream back at them and stop listening because ... because everything is just... its just that it always happen and they dont realise. and people tell them but they dont wanna hear what they dont like to hear

when . its just. oh so.

GAWD IDONTKNOWWHATTOTHINKORFEELANYMORE

but despite it all, i always listen and keep my thoughts to myself.
cause only stupid people will say them out. and get into trouble for it

hur, we all live by lies, half-truths and ignorance.

I think I'm going crazy.

They say, talking to yourself is the first sign of insanity.

I think I reallyreally need a shrink.

im not making any sense. anymore.

gosh.

help.

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< in response to Lousy :D >
hur dont you feel tired too?
as in not so much as physical but more of emotional weariness

all the emptiness and all the stuff we're being forced to do

like if we argue, they'll argue back . And they never see reason
So yeah, I'm sure you get what I mean right
In the end, we just nod our head and nod our head and do whatever they want us to do just to shut em up.

yeah.

blah.

&yesterday my eyes hurt too much so I couldnt sleep until I ate the drug the doctor gave me.

AND AND AND I never stay up to play lurrr!

The school and I feel dead compared to you lah, lousy!

you're like a bouncing bubble of energy. hur.

school = dead + silence = comfort = sleep = I like.

pfft. you must feel so honoured. I'm blogging about you. again

toodles, you lousy.



maybe they'll leave you alone. but not me

0541pm

Lyneeex

This post is dedicated to LYNEEEX. In response to her request.

its not that I dont know how to spell lynnette. cause i just did.

yea she claims that she's "stuck in (my) heart" and she "intoxicates (my) mind"

crazy woman.

so she's not gonna be one of my LALAs cause she say if she's my lala, im her Po.

which is ridiculous cause Po is freaky and satanic.

so she's just gonna be Lyneeex now.

I love lyneeex cause she's so spastic and crazy but because she's one of the eeeex, she makes me sane.
see! i did say something good about you *grins*

and and and if beeex is BUBBLE BEEX, she shall be LOUSY LYNEEEX

LOUSSYYYY

see, i did blog about you my dearest lousy.



> main post is below <

Tuesday, 7th November

And to think I felt that yesterday was bad.

Overslept. So I was already in a really grouchy mood. Becauseeee, I'm usually a very punctual person and, I do value punctuality.

Was on the same bus/MRT as mtay. unlucky. so so so unlucky.

and then its just...

bleugh. its just luh.

cause its a looong complicated thing and a whirlwind of emotions and tension

and now my eyes just feel so sore and tired and heavy.

everything's just so pink-ed up.

everyone keeps saying I need to learn how to pioritise and all. And all And all.

I just feel so weary cause everyday, everyone will be on my case, constantly reprimanding me about ALL THE 'AND ALL'S

its just so tiring to deal with everyone everyday.

whats the point if no one believes that I'm reallyreally putting in the effort now.

And like when you scream too much, you'll find that your voice gets very hoarse and it hurts to even say something.
Yeap. that's just bloody how i feel now.

adults. pfft.

like a living hell man.

tired.tired.tired. of mtay. of all the "AND ALL"sand just really tired.

*whines and whines* i dont wanna mugggggg anymoreeeee



thanks to kk and tiff who were there to hear me out and lend a shoulder and all. I probably wasnt even making any sense and I was just like choking on my own tears but yeah they were there and all. so thanks


man, i love my bubble beex and day. cause they know what a pain in the arse _ can be. and they've been there before so yeah. I WANNA GO BURN THAT STRAWBERRY.

burn it.
watch it perish.
leaving nothing but ashes.

and i'll watch with morbid fascination. wahahaha

farewell, my dearest strawberry. you're sweet and all as a strawberry. but you're like poison.

you'll only bring us down

like whythepink can you not understand that, you pinken strawberry.

*SCREAMS AND TEARS HAIR*


DAY is gonna mug with me tomorrow. thank goodness. I'll feel safer then.

I'm seriously in need of a day when I can just go back to being sane y'know. just towning and slacking without a care in the world.

just being sane.

ohkay, and I'm in need of loads of mango puddings too.

you know. If i were a supergenius I wouldnt need to worry bout all these. I wish I were a supergenius.

and let the rain drown out their voices

0556pm

Monday, 6th November

Today was terribly exhausting.
fell asleep while doing gngzxa's amath homework in the reading room just now hurs.

then woke up to find that most people have already left and it was like 9.30pm

Yea, and for the first time in at least 6months, I completed an Amath assignment on my own

ahahas!

but yeah luh... he even went so far as to cheatproof my papers you know!

cause he was afraid that I would take like my past assignments to copy (he knows me too well tsktsk) and was afraid that I would forge or something so he went to cheatproof the papers.

So when I do my assignments he will be reassured that I did everything on my own lol

damn, he's smarter than the others. not sure whether that's a good thing or a bad thing hur. cause now I cant copy no more.

he's really upset though. like he went: "dont know whether its your fault or mine"
cause im a really really slow learner and we covered only 1 and a half topics in 3hours

WEEEELLLL...

it really wasnt my fault you see. the people from the next table were too distracting and I really couldnt concentrate.

like there was this lesbo who asked for my number like wth... ._.

her guy friend was from the same primary school/cca as me. then he wanted to confirm so she asked on his behalf and she went like : xiao jie ah, ni shi bu shi from ...

blah, mr soh much?

hurhurhur.
cept mr soh would be "xiao mei ah..."

then after interrogating me, gngzxa was like ROTFLMAOING away and i was trying ohsohard to finish that question, when they went back to their convo, and in an oh-so-loud-like-i-can-hear-you-lah-rite voice, they kept talking about questions to ask me that kinda thing and gngzxa went like: LOL they're gonna ask you questions again.

and the lesbo passed me this paper, and apparently I looked really cheena to her so she wrote everything in chinese, (with the hao4 ma3 the ma3 written as horse but oh well), to ask for my number

and i was gave her this blank look and she was like: scared for what, I dont bite

...



yeah and then the group continued to harrass me by seating like a few spaces infront of me, and oh so openly talking about asking me somemore stuff and gngzxa went like: see, im so hungry but because i know after i leave, the lesbo will come harrass you, i wont go buy my oreos now

freaky. oh so freaky.

had chem earlier on with ys. the more i attempted to do chem qns, the more I feel like im gonna be so dead.

ys said: say die will die.

but hor... I dunno luh like what zhihui says, chem makes no sense.
and and and chem is just so difficult luh.

sighsighsigh. I need a miracle man.

havent started on physics yet

mr kuang! jiu ming ah!

i dont know what questions to ask cause I dont think I understand anything.

you know, my head's justlike vacuum now.

oh yeah. and gngzxa commented that the way i hold my hp is like a lian.

EEEYYERRRRRR



I'm really tired of people saying I shouldnt wear this, I shouldnt wear that, I shouldnt do this, neither can I do that, just because the lians do that

I have always been under the impression that lians are just an insignificant, ugly part of this place and though its obvious that majority of the people despise them, its like... the way they are trying to put it... makes lians sound like royalty y'know.

like ohhhh! you cant do this, cause they did that and so that's like sacred or something man

well, im not gonna let any lian ruin me. just cause they do it, why cant i do it too.

I refuse to let them affect my decisions and life so.

Like why cant I do something I want to, wear something I feel like wearing ,just pink-ing cause the lians are doing it too



its silly.

lians do so many things you know. if you wanna carry out your despise for them to such an extreme, then you wont get to do loads of stuff.

then that's just sad.

that was directed to no one in particular, just those who have always critisized me in what i do, what i wear and how i do stuff.


Such a sad, sad, ugly, pink world.

*shakes head*


ohkay wheeees. I do have something to look forward to now
like friday, imma gonna go towning and if I can persuade my lil bubble beex to do help me, i shall mug later on too.

and monday will be watching Step Up with day beex cw. day missed me loads y'know *beams at day* .

hurhur no luh. just that we havent actually gone out for awhile.
LALA! she shall become a LALA too! ahahaha! mmm will be going out to cut hair with her provided that its not out of budget

dayyy! we still need to make a call right! if too ex i cant go hor sighs~~

yesterday i suddenly felt like being a goodgood person and so i reminded pinky pornstar that there will be cca and i was kinda harsh, like I said: cca on tues, wed and thurs. be there.

and I said that in like my LALA's window. and gawwwd, i was so embarrassed. see luh! if I werent so hao xin, then this wouldnt happen

oh boo. just let me curl up in a smalldark corner and just die.

anyway, today's Olvls social studies was on merger and sep + ireland, which is simple right. PFFT. that means next year, we'll get those hard hard stuff.

oh no man.

blah. i wanna give up on studying right now.



kay luh. actually no luh. just feel kinda pissed at Science and Amath for being so ... ... difficult.

stares at beixin and goes: DONT PUSH ME CAUSE I'M ON THE EDGE.

ahaha lets go catch HAPPY FEET man!

beixin is awfully spastic when she wants to be.
i'll let you in on a lil secret...

...

...

*whispers* she can make owl calls...

1145pm

Sunday, 5th November

finished design for carmen's sweet16 bdae bash invitation card! wheee!
another satisfied client

teeheehee.

everyone invited must go ohkay! give me some face hahahaha

and its gonna be so fun cause there MAY be a dj and loads of great food and music and we can dance the night away

and and and we get to swim like earlier on! ahaha. Parc Oasis is fun.





Random thoughts today

sometimes i wished i was a mad genius. then i dont need to worry about retests or exams.

sighs.

More randomness.

I love LALA and LALA2
I miss LALA so much and LALA2 thinks Im mad for obsessing over LALA's smile.

LALA2 is angry and pissed at the world
LALA2 says no one understands but I think I do
LALA2 is reallyreally angry now.
I hope LALA2 understands soon.

LALA2 says LALA is weird.
LALA2 says I'm weird
LALA2 says ZHEEX is pronounced as ji when it is supposedly pronounced as geez.

LALA2 says that if she is to be called _, i have to be called zheex

LALA2 is in need of more chocolates and more mango puddings than me.

I just need LALA.

oh lala.

This is random

1. What decision?
2. Stacy or Michelle. Pink or Porn. L or SD.
3. OMFG
4. Pinky pornstar is such a bitch
5. I do not have a decision to make. pfft u pornstar.
6. pinky pornstar better stop telling people about my decisions-to-be-made. which may not even be made, tyvm.
7. pinky pornstar is so pink.
8. I shall use pink and pornstar to replace swear words now.

OMPINKG. that's so pink, you pornstar.

0212

Saturday, 4th November

Today, I'm in the "will-get-away-even-with-murder" mood.

woke up to mug (not against of my own will but because I dont wanna feel guilty later)

Then went to dance when everyone else was under the impression that I went to school.

My eyelids felt really heavy today. I have no idea why cause its the first time in weeks that I finally had like 8hours of sleep.

Anyway, went for meetups. Went real smoothly. There was this girl, Cheri, who was super nice. And and and, you know one of the reasons why I love my bx and cw is because they always know what I'm looking for and when they'll always keep a lookout for me.

like one of the meetups today was this top that bx referred to me. And it was super gorgeous. So i love my bx and cw loads.

bwahhh! today I went from tiongbahru to dhobygaut to harbourfront to queensway shopping center to harbourfront to ____ and then jp.

it really wasnt my fault that I went to ____ :x:x:x

cause everytime I go harbourfront, I'd go outram then go bugis. So I took a wrong turn and went to bugis. Then after like 4stops, I stunned and stunned and stunned. Then I saw BUGIS and " TO BOON LAY " on the other side and stunned somemore. Then, with a "SHIT!" I ran out hurhurhur.

We all have our dumb moments. I just have them a bit more often.

reach jp and changed to sch uniform heehees. I'm getting better at this.

oh and I saw this prettypretty necklace. Was shopping to find stuff. Or rather, just there to give advice lur. For the ideal present. So... I saw this prettypretty necklace, but they were all interested in other stuff. And they asked for my opinion when the salesperson was trying desperately to sell this fugly necklace away and what disgusted me was that they actually like it. So I was like, got more choices.

Then I pointed at the prettypretty necklace and the salesperson suddenly beamed at me and went: that costs 2000+ dollars

PFFFFFFFT.

mmmmhmmm and got her to sponsor me shorts. . She was really really reluctant at first cause she knows my mum will kill us both if we get it. My mum is like CW's dad.

They share the same views about certain ridiculous stuff.

Anyway! I managed to get her to buy it for me cause I said it could be my Christmas present and though she was abit reluctant to buy it for me (said it was too much for so little cloth), she gave in eventually.



wheewhheewhheee.

Oh yeah. I remembered saying I'd be going to town today hor. But bx they all had their 2g bbq and they wanted her to buy stuff for bbq so I was ditched in the end.

That was ohkay though. Cause I have too many meetups today. And starting from next week, like have cca on tues, wed, fri. So yeah, hard to meetup, you see.

PFFFT. I wont be looking forward to those days. Not cause I dont like cca but cause I wont get to eat at all.

like mrs tay wants me for two weeks, tues and fri. and the only time im free is like lunch break. So since lunch break, the most is 1hr and each session with my dear mrs tay is one hour, I wont get to eat at all.

And I'd have to meetup with starnia (she couldnt make it today) on wed so there goes that lunchbreak too hur.

whee. hurray. cheers. joy.

I had better lose 1kg for all the torture imma gonna go through.

gosh i miss _. BX BX BX! I'LL NEVER SEE _ AGAIN. I'LL NEVER GET TO SHOUT AND SCREAM AND BANG MY HEAD ON THE METAL THINGY AND MAKE EVERYONE :O AT ME.

:((((((

wheee danity kane and p!atd is

WHATTTT A WONDERFUL CARICATUREEE OF INTIMACCCCCY!

lalalalala.

blah I cant get their songs outta my head.

"THIS IS AN 81 HONDA! HOW DARE YOU!"

ROTFLMAO. I wanna go catch employee of the month (x and and and Stranger than Fiction.

which is about this author writing a story about this guy and little does she know, this guy really exist. So this guy, whatever he does, he hears the author's voice, narrating his life and everything he does, driving him insane ahaha.

damn hilarious luh.

ohkay Step Up is a must see cause Channing Tatum is starring in it.

pfft. too many movies too little time.

sniffsniff. And so much mugging on top of that.

damn, life is hard.

P.S. CHANNING TATUM IS SERIOUSLY AND STEP UP SOUNDS HOT.
P.S.S I HEARD ITS CIARA'S SONG GNA BE FEATURED IN IT
P.S.S.S CHANNING TATUM'S MOVES ARE

1010

Friday, 3rd November

Hope you guys like the new skin for this page. Cause the previous one had reader-bility probs.

Finally one week of torture in LT4 is up.

Muimui jie continued her lecture for another half an hour, delaying everything else. So everything had to be pushed back. And on top of that, she took another 1hour after all our lessons. So like, we were in the LTs from 7.30 to 4.45.

LIKE DAMN COLD LUH shudders~

When I came out I couldnt even feel my hands cause I was too numb from the cold.

muimui jie's class was really stressful today luh. And the air-con didnt make things better.
pui.

ayyye! I survived front row!

*salutes myself*

I didnt understand 60% of most of the stuff but I think she's a great tcher despite that, the stress and the cold. Cause under normal tchers, I'd only understand 10%to 20% and under my dearest mrs tay, I'd understand <if I'm determined to not fall asleep which is like 1 out of 10 classes> the most 5%.

Its not that I dont listen y'know. Sometimes I do. But yeah, I can only tahan maybe 1/2 hour of lecture. Then, I'd space out. Then all the rest of the 40% will fly away.

ahaha.

But today was really darndarndarn cold.

wheee ohkay. I'm finally going town tomorrow. And dance too.

Like the more they dont want me to do stuff I like to do, the more I cling to them in a sort of... silly desperation.

SHHHHH! ahahah! I'm so proud of myself now. I can lie without feeling much guilt.

hurhurs that doesnt sound like anything to be proud of but yeah.

Lying is how some people survive. Lying is good. Because I say so.
Just cause most people feel that lying is bad and immoral doesnt make it so. *sticks tongue out*

Anyway, I'd die if I really have to stay at home and mug 24/7. I'd die from system overload.

Sorry luh, I dont believe there's a point in making me do things against my own will. Cause of my stubborness, I wont put in any effort. Like if you want me to study 12hours, and you lock me up in an empty room with nothing but my books. I can just stone there and not do anything.

ahaha. I've mastered the art of stoning.

Thats what I do on a few Saturdays when I was in an exceptionally bad mood.

blahblahblah lahlahlah.

Everyone's telling me that those may not be mosquitoes' bites so for the last few weeks, I cursed them for nothing hur.

Yeah, they reckon those to be rashes or something. I dont know. I'm not allergic to anything so this is freaky and really creeping me out.

rawr ! i hate itching all over.

mummy says she'll bring me to the doc after they get back from their 3rd honeymoon.
Its because of they're on their 3rd honeymoon that I can sneak out heehees! But of course I dont trust the rest of my family.

Like that time I went out when I told them I had school and when they asked what time I came back I said 5pm and Zhirui went like: how come you go school not in your school uniform.

...

I know she's not stupid. She's just trying to spill the beans on me.

Anyway! I seriously hope the doc gives me something to stop the itching. And that there will be no blood or pain involved. yeapyeapyeap.

Meetup with starnia tomorrow. ahahas. Had 2 meetups with her before. And, she's very nice. Tomorrow's gonna be pure swapping. I'm feeling rather gleeful cause I earn more than her :P like her stuff are more expensive and though my stuff are good too, I got them from a much cheaper price from other people so yeah.


You know hor! Jingwen was playing with chrislyn's puppy soft toy today. and like the way he was so _! ahaha! *swooons* He was like petting the soft toy and pulling its hoodie over its head and stuffing its cute lil ears inside and petting and setting it on the edge of his table.

awwww...

Yayyayyay. NO MORE LTs!

rejoice rejoice!

Like I think I just repeated that statement or something. *ignores the accusations of GOLDFISHGOLDFISH*


I feel so sleepdeprived. i didnt sleep in any of the lectures. Almost did in History but beixin woke me up.
so I got this extra lid or something that made my left eye look swollen and heavy.

zzz.

I feel like reading some morbid, passionate love story now.
see! school makes me crazy.

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Thursday, 2nd November

YS said that this page has reader-bility problems or something. So you guys tahan awhile lah. I'll improve it next week xP.
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And the stars arent out tonight
but neither are we
to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye
these memories cant be replaced
these wishes i wished
and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

that's supposed to be an excerpt of the lyrics of the song im trying to put in my blog.
dedicated to the person who sent me that song. :D

not that i'm feeling emo now or anything. just that its getting kinda empty without you and all.

lonely too.

so here's the Promise. Right back atcha! :DD

Oh, I forgot to add that my site will look better in IE rather than Foxy.

Missed out on history today cause I was told that I didnt need to come. It was partly my fault because I didnt confirm with other people.
But at least it couldve been worse. Like I couldve missed out on Physics.
Now, that would be scary. *shudders*

Loads of other people came for lessons that they werent supposed to go to.
ahaha

Physics lessons for these two days were particularly interesting. Like, yesterday, there was the mobile phone which went off and there was this Indian music. And today, this girl had a seizure/fits.

Initially I thought muimui jie found someone asleep or something so she said "lie down lie down".
Yeahs but I she was really fast in reacting. Like she just rushed to the girl and the girl slumped onto her, shaking and all.

We got a 10mins break thanks to that.

LT4 darn cold.

My dear drama teacher from yesterday wasnt there to teach us today. So Chemistry was really a bore. So was Mathematics. As usual.
Ended up reading Karhui's Deathnote. Thanks man! ahhaha!

Equally as thankful to dear Carmen. Cause after I finished Deathnote. I flipped through Teens with Chyiwei. Kay luh, the magazine's content isnt that appealing either. But yeah, it will suffice.

Was hungry throughout the whole day

I did manage to kop some of Weisin's chips but that violent Joseph kept hitting me and all.
He's just jealous cause I got more chips. hmph.

EEEEEYERRRR, all my holidays seem to get worse and worse every year. Muimui jie says that all IP schools dont have holidays. but they're them and I'm me.

If I dont get to relax and have at least 1/4 of my holidays, I'll end up really bad like you know, psychologically.

And that's unhealthy right!

darn that GOONG. Seriously I dont know why everyone's so hooked onto it. I'm sick of hearing the songs over and over again thanks to zhiyun. pfft.

The cast is so and boring and and and there's just nothing special about it. Even the plot is . Its just so boring luh. And so not exciting or heart-renching.

I tried watching it to see how come everyone's so obsessed with it. And I really did man. But in the end I just stoned there and was mildly irritated by that girl-whose-name-I've-forgotten.

Fictionpress own them all. LALALALA

yeah ys was asking how much I spent. Cause yeah, it does seem like I spent alot this month hor. *smiles sheepishly*

BUT I CANT HELP IT. ITS ALL TOO TEMPTING RAWR.

kay luh, so I may not be earning as much as I spend. But STILL...
my actions can be justified cause last month I had my birthday so naturally, I'd be richer than usual.


OH YEAH BEFORE I FORGET!

to the guy who keeps trying to psycho me to going poly:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO _______, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOO YOOOO!

now, surrender that mango cake

ahah bet you're really over the moon now. cause you can finally go watch your m18 shows eh.

blah. i miss so many people right now right now right now.

anyways this holiday and next year, i predict, will be slightly better for me. Cause I'll be spending too much time trying to catch up with the rest in school and there'll be less drama in my life.

And that's good. Less angst, y'know.


YAY. And, carmen's having her sweet16 birthday bash next month. And it'll be oh so fab! Like the food will be yum. and we can go swim first and and and they may have a DJ! COOL RIGHT!

And it'll be so fun cause dress code is "FABOULOUS YOU" and you're suppose to wear something that you dont usually wear/want to wear but never dared to wear/that's just you.

Smart casual.

Jing wen! ahahah! he's so excited and honoured to be invited. cause he said something about never being to one. I told him to show up in a tux xPP

He's just high now cause everyone keeps asking him to go.

OH YAYNESS I CANT WAIT. And did you hear, I'm also helping to design the invitation card too

I'm so green with envy cause I want my sweet16 to be a big thing too. But I cant cause of Os next year.

*tears hair*

There's just so many things I wanna do ever since lastlastlast month. Like beaching, for one. And going mad and spastic and just roaming aimlessly in town.

I miss having fun

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
you're not making this easy.

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Wednesday, 1st November

HEY LALA IM LOVING MY NEW BLOGSKIN :D

while zhirui took 2 days to finish her paper mache, I took 2 days to finish this.



yays I feel a greatgreat sense of achievement.
Cause initially I didnt want to do it cause I felt lazy as usual. But yeah, I got sick of the previous one. BLEUGH.

Classes today were quite exciting as compared to what we usually have.
I do feel as though I've learnt something today. Which is something new.
I havent felt this way after classes since lord-knows-when.

Physics was better than expected. I understood!
And that's enough for me.

Muimui jie was surprisingly ... uh... civil? towards us. And she didnt pick on me *heaves a sigh of relief*.
Else, I would've been dead.

Someone's handphone went off in the middle of the lecture and everyone suddenly stunned. Cause the ringtone was this weird cult-like music.
Kay luh, no scratch that. It was Indian music.
Anyway, it was a really nerve-wreaking moment.

Chemistry was especially fun. Kept laughing my head off. The cher was really drama in a good LMAO way. And, she makes sense and keeps me interested.

Good things never last hur. Cause in the end, we couldnt run away from Mathematics.
Yes. Slept in the lesson. What else is new. PFFT.

Xinhang and Beixin share the same sentiments. And Chyiwei kept asking me to hang in there and endure.

Needless to say, I failed Chyiwei.

When I woke up, cher was still at the same point.

As usual.

But I do know how to do the stuff she taught today. I forgot what topic it was but but but! I know how to do it!

mmm ohkay I'm stopping now cause I'm beat. Overdosage of html and notepads for me.

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