31MAYo6
AURGHH. i had the feeling that I still had mascara in my eyes this morning.
but heck care. rushed to school. to go to APRC again. ><
SAW MR LEE AT THE BUSSTOP WITH HIS FIANCE!
heehees
hmm. APRC.. well, guess the results will have a positive impact on our regime luh.
quite satisfied. 1 gold, 2 silver, 1bronze. and for shortput, we are the record holders. 5.59secs
but for some reason, that group screwed up and wasnt even in the top3. aurghhs. why dont they recognise record-holders!
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but allgirls group leh that one. xD heehees.
too bad shuyinn was away. if she come right, girls team will surely own everything ^^
shotput = ytd, we were RECORD HOLDERS. cause the measuring tape COULDNT EVEN measure our results. heehee.
then other schools took our concept. one even came up with THE SAME DESIGN. =.=
but they couldnt work it. lol
but for some fucking reason, they won the SPORTSMANSHIP award. like, so totally, IRONIC.
anyways lah, for that event, our school TEAMS totally own the whole thing.
its like, we're not only recordholders for BOTH [shotput and relay] events, but for semifinals, all our teams were in =]]
RIGHT. RELAY. aurghhs.
fuck those gweeeenwidddgee people
its like they went SO DAMN SLOW LUH. they got in semis though. ._.
for some >< reason our teams robots went haywire at some parts for diff teams luh. my poor jnrs! sec1s and they got laughed and everything by those sobs and bs.
as in, pressure lah. semifinals mah. then its like, when dunnowhy the robot suddenly went haywire, they were literally JUMPING, hugging, laughing, cheering and everything.
for the next team that went up, the recordholders der, they also did the same thing. when we screwed up too.
malcomn got in finals. onemanshow luh he. everyone else need like at least two people operate. but he onemanshow. LOL
anyways. yea. >< screwd. GWEENWIDGGEEE won not cause they're good. but cause we screwed up. but inside, they know, who the REAL winners are. they know, cause ... THEIR BOTS RUN AS SLOW AS THE REMIX OF E SCHSONG!
._.
stupid jian guy and jian gurl. dao me. aft the whole thng, both of them STARE at me. so I rolled my eyes at them and walk away lol.
was really tempted to give them the staring clap. but not enough people.><
the gurl hor, your typical twit luh. nooob. just stand there and camwhore. >.>
and flirt.
its like aft they won, one guy wanted to come over and shake hands. >.>
then later I saw the whole bunch of fuckers, acting out what they actually wanted to do... or had in mind.
like A and B. A for us, B for bitch. [[them, lol]]
B uses middle finger, digs nose, and uses the finger to shake hand. yah. then A shake lo.
then they were all like laughing. and its so blooday obvious what they meant.
sure, these kinda fuckers are EVERYWHERE.
just found it so AURGGGHHINNNG unlucky that even in such a small competition, we met them.
norine cried cause they won =x and malcomn didn. i thnk also cause of pressure lah. since her group was the record-holder.
dont get me wrong, everyone's ohkay with the results... its just that we didn wannt those freaking pricks to win.
even the emcee was like "good sportsmanship shown there" and was like eyeing at them. sarca-ing LOL.
and yisheng was : i bet you 10bucks they won get the sportsmanship award.
._.
LOLsumo bot races were HILARIOUS. this primary sch team, SUPER ENTHU! whenever they go up, will cheer the person. dunno whether is Terry, Jerry, Gary or Cherry. ._.
hurhurrr.
took neos with my jnrs! =] 2 sec1, 1 sec 2 and me! haha. hard to find people who take neos in the cca =]]
heehees I'm starting to like my jnrs LOADSandloads. hurhur. and they so cute lah. so short so small. so cuuute.
.
sianned.
so rush and all.
aurhhhhghhh.
0923
30MAYo6
frustrated. basically.
the whole fricking day.
thought I could finally take a break from it all, and just chiong to my heart's content.
so how's the chionging? nonexistant. ._.
then had to attend this competition thing which I... just had to... be a "nanny". yeah. just support and everything. >< from 8 - 5.
haiiish.
then day smsed me later on said she cant go. T.T then i started panicking cause I didn dare go alone and everything. and no place to stay and all.
called up and smsed some people, desperately trying to sell ticket, find a place to crash.
almost none replied. ._.
busy tuesdays. as usual.
haiish. then remembered chrislyn and peishi were going >< hurhur...
then beixin offered to let me go her house a while. then as for a place to crash, I figured I could always sneak back into that shithole.
so, I thought everything will turn out fine. fun. according to plan B.
and for a moment, I felt rather gleeful.
fool the world, but I cant fool myself.
was so excited and well, ready and everything. lined up for a VERYLONG TIME [[the queue was fricking long ._.]]
and in the end. _________________________
down the drain;
ijustwannahavefunbut I guessedthat'stoomuchtoask.
Its like I'm gasping
trying to breathe
suffocating
under the intensity
choking me-
your warped definition of CARE
and when I struggled to get up
I find that you werent there
I need my space
I wanna learn the hard way.
call it whatever you want
but this is how I wanna stay
strong. alone.
independent
without you.
in my way.
inmylife.
inmyface.
lessons learnt? PLAN C is equally as important as PLAN B. Lies have to be secured enough. and lastly, lie well.
its all too rushed. since tomorrow, or today. lol. have ta go the finals of the competition thing. and reach school, by 8. ><
lol, yea. ponning CIP. haiish. rather go for CIP then the competition though. but well, piorities. urhhh ><
cant stand it luh.
my day's like a big ball of... i dunno.
Ignore the above content if you cant understand. I cant help being incoherent at a time like this.
basically, today sucked.
&i hate them. I wanna grow up. and be free.
like her.
1232thenextmornn
28MAYo6
nice right! my avatar << LOL.
finally pierced my ears. ._.
finally got the courage to, after 6years.
Weird, huh. how it took so long for me to get the courage to do something in which almost everyone around me already did since they were babies. ><
actually what gave me the courage was _'s encouragement. =x
really. just a click. and its overr.
finally. my life is back on track again.
hectic, but purposeful. I'm not alone, cause I'm with you. =]]
awww... I'm touched. >< heehees.
I dunno. its kinda weird that I will find comfort and solace in a stupid game
what the world needs now
is love, sweet love
its the only thing that the world
has too LITTLE of.
too true.
today went to school for art. to do clay thingy. I suck at it. ><
So I got moodier and moodier. cause I felt so tired. my hands felt so suan~, I wanna stay at home and play that stupid game, I felt overshadowed, I got a tuition later on that last for 3 hours... and still haveta do math... and at most of all, _ is ignoring me.
yeah. then I guess my moody = look tired? hurhur?
=x mrs tay was like: yoo alright? T.T
COME, LETS DO MATH!
lol. quote from mrstay.
cute right. as in, UGLY but adorable. LOL.
heehees. evil eyes! xD
MOS TOMORROW! then not gna sleep also. prolly. cause cannot find a place to crash. =x
nevermind! xD. cause wed haveta reach orchard at 8. then yeahh. =x hurhur.
might as well not sleep lo.
OMFG! i just remembered! what if... I get busted by 'lawenforcers'. omg. ><
im so paranoid~
rushrush, I'm falling apart to half-time. rush rush, &those are the lives I wanna lead...
saw my neighbour today. barely a year older than me. and she's smoking. so guang ming zheng da some more. =x
we used to be so close.
my parents keep telling me she's a bad influence etcetc. And I know she lies alot. But she was fun. and that's all that mattered then.
she's the prom queen,
I'm in the marching band
she's the cheerleader
&im standing in the stands
she gets the top bunk and
im sleeping on the floor
and in the 5 years, we grew further apart. and the next thing I know, she's off in the backseat of this bicycle. Arms around some guy. Groove Coverage&other dance&hiphop music blasting out so loud, that the surrounding blocks could hear.
cycling off clumsily down the road, and away-
leading the life that I wanna lead.
I dont know why I'm feeling
sorry for myself
spent all my time
pretending I was someone else-
without a care in this world. with no worries. related to school and other stupid stuff.
I wanna worry and care about THINGS WORTH CARING AND WORRYING. I WANNA DO SOMETHING WORTH DOING. SOMETHING THAT I CAN LOOK BACK ON 10 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD AND SAY: I HAD A GREAT, MEANINGFUL TEENHOOD.
I WANNA BE FREE - like her.
i get a lil bit, she gets a lil more
she's missAmerica
&i'm just the girl next door.
1054flyy
28MAYo6
AND- soon, the pathetic-excuse-for-a-holiday-will start.
>.>
woke up this morning, reluctant to leave the bed. cause then, everything will begin. again. and. I dont wanna do this anymore.
T.T
haiish. went bugis street with beixin and leena ytd after ballet.
and bought this plain white tube. and this black super-gorgeous-choker. =]]
saw this really beauutiful blackandwhite mickeymouse slingbag. xD omg, I wanna get it. x.x
heehees. I'm such a spendthrift.
went onto maple and supermega-phone-d: CONGRATS TO SWENTY90 KOR FOR REACHING LVL 100 <3
hahas. then realised how stupid I was. Since there was a cheaper megaphone. >.>
then received pm-s. x.x
1. from this 'generate' guy who hates kor cause ... something about ks ._. typical.
2. from this guy who just say : congrats =]
3. from this guy who say: wann make friends mah etcetc -.-u
4. from this guy who... well, I deleted him from my contacts cause that time I was speaking with my buddies then he said what: anything you say here can be used against you in court so shut up.
dunno who he was referring to but I got seriously offended. and besides I never talk to him. and he seems like he's got a SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEM. hmmphs. so I deleted him
yeah. then he pm me say I was still in his buddy list, taking up space.
oh whatever. delete me ^^, dunnid to say so much. ._.
even maple is beginning to bore me. [[or maybe thats because I'm stuck in sleepywood, finding people to help me get macis horns. ><]]
ohwells. T.T but its the only way.
will post more photos once I find the time ><
andI dont know what I did wrong. what I did. or what I said. for you've yet to say I word to me since _. and seems like its been forever that you've been gone-
its like you're gone. and I cant get used to it.
please come back home-
0845am
26MAYo6
what a sucky week
I havent had such a crappy week since _ left for _.
aurghhhs.
stupid bandwidth probbb.
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the last week. of school. was p a i n f u l l y slow.
amazing. I'm happy with my results. =x Relieved that I passed hmt. and that my l1r5 wasnt over 25. &that my parents would not receive the letter and all.
whatever you say mrlim, I'll still be happy. you cant change that.
&IM INSULTED. that you even thought that I forged my parents signature on my history script. =[
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handover on tuesday. =x hurhurs. kinda >< and all... =x
haiiish.
Got obsessed over Ouran Host Club. =))
rushed art. =x
and all.
so >< today. got up to receive token of appreciation for the Bluetooth project :D. heehees. maybeee... I really can chiong with 2x after all.
xD
aurgh great. I re-read my post and realised how incoherent I sound. =x
downdowndownnnn.
something might as well be nothing. and nothing is all I'll ever be then.
whoamItryingtokid.
0430pm
18MAYo6
Love,
is the only agony
that I cant
endure.
<3
I think I offended certain people. Just by being myself. =x
or maybe its cause of The Influence. hmms. or maybe I'm just being too sensitive.
but its true, _ has The Potential and every reason to hate me.
or maybe i think too much, like always. ><
-
but being "___" is not a sin.
everyone makes it sound as though I'm different in a bad way.
like a sin.
but its not. and I'm not. cause its just called s t y l e. not that.
you have it, I have it. Mine's just more appealing.
its not talent. its not 'artistic'. its just.
my style.
i guess =/
im offended, really I am.
wanleng bought really nice cookies! haha. im such a pig. xD thumbprint cookies are nice. I dont really like chocolate though. in general, I mean. but I totally love the mint chocolate. :D
hurhurs! <3 After Eight!
Went to watch Man Of Letters yesterday. It was this reallyreallyreally nice musical. its about this girl, A, who meets her kindergarden friend, B. Then B is this really nerdy guy who nosebleeds alot.
& B sorta have a tiny crush on A.
then C is B's good friend. but not very good with expressing himself with words and all. and C likes B, B likes C. =x as in, attracted physically luh.
so, in order to woo A, C asked B to write love letters to her. So yea, while writing the letters, B is actually expressing what he himself feels luh.
=x
yea.
and the whole thing took place around 1955. then got the whole "chase British out" protesting and all. So it was really rather... history as well. xD
I'm so H A P P Y.
xD
kor gave me the following, for free:
INT +6! check that out people! xD wooots.
&this is sooo freaking cool. scrolled! xD worth so much $.
and its magic att is 73!
thats like so MUCH better than my magic att 65 de Cromi.
yea. and he gave me this scrolled earrings and scrolled hat. which I'm willing to sell away/ give away to anyone in bootes. hahas.
since I've out-leveled them
oh, and ive decided that I love priests.
cause apart from 2x cards, and botting like Zane kor. >.>, the best way to gain exp is to party a priest! haha.
Common sense.
its like wow. in 2min, 1%.
omg <3
too bad RX was a bit laggy yesterday though. Or else I would have leeched quite abit from him also.
talking about lags, heres what happened to jiawei:
hurhurs. lvl 28 sia. so fast. jiayous hor. then can join h o l y s a i n t s lerr! xD
anyways yea. spearman in mage clothings. yea. seems like he became lvl 13 oso hahas. =.="
heehees.
0844pm
16MAYo6
today was just like anyother.
grey.
hmms. I wonder if the sky would ever turn blue in my lifetime.
or any shade of ...
anything but grey.
=x
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were [[are]] still here =]]
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio
OMFG! ohkies, firstly, I must thank zane korkor for the $ and everything luh. =]
hahas. I'm finally a subguild master of DeathOmen. xD
that means, DeathOmen's has a subguild, H 0 l y S a i n t s.
&I'm the master of that guild! xD
heehees! its like soo cool luh.
responsibility is a scary thing. but I can handle it =}
hmms. today, PL was talking about Boxers. and he was talking about jiao again.
PL: yoo have your ___ jiao and your ___ jiao
or something along that line
Yenchai: still got what jiao!
or something along that line =]]
Wini: Got Blue Flower jiao annot!
hurhurs. so many jiaos. =x
our dirrtayy, polluted minds.
aww.
wanleng was saying how MI3 was not allowed to be screened in China cause of some underwear scene or something luh. as in, in that scene, got underwear or something. =/
lmaos.
I think hor, these kind stuff, you want censor or dont want censor, people will know sooner or later de lah.
forbidden fruit taste the sweetest the more you dont want them to know, the more they'll want to find out and when they do, the more satisfied they are.
hurhurs. Its just the question of being o p e n m i n d e d lah.
&found _ rather stupid.
what a DOTcat. you can try but you'll never be what you want. you'll never succeed in that goal of yours. cause I'm better in that field. and we both know it.
I'm just average. But at least I'm much better than you, in terms of _ .
was late for cca today. after like 1/2 an hour, JL finally noticed me and he looked me in that weird, unnerving way again before saying: zhixin! what are yoo doing here! ._.
right.
anyways, some guys and I were fooling around on the com. and I went to _.msn.com for msn messenger. and I signed in.
then after that the guys went to alot of blogs to spam. =x sorry to those affected. =x
actually it was only someone's blog luh. if there were others, I didnt witness lah.
hmm. &no personal feelings were involved or anything luh. like, not that we hate yoo or anything. =.=
its like sugar rush. just that its not sugar. just wuliao. =x
nexttimewontyou spam with me.
yea. anyways. JL came &saw. he didnt see anything. just us laughing and all. then he came over and got pissed off cause his darlinnnggg robo people ignored him. then he turned off the monitor.
and giggled as he said: dont make me click alt-f4
then I was like: errr, go ahead. I dont mind luh.
after all, I'm sian ler. and someone was using MY com. so how was I supposed to do anything thumbdrive-less and MYCOM-less. I was really fine with it luh.
JL [surprised]: really?!
me: =.=" go ahead luh.
then he clickclickclick. I was about to help him alt-f4 somemore but he quickly went to turn on the monitor luh. crazy.
then he saw the msnmessenger and was like THISISCCASESSION.
then as he said that, everyone took 3 steps away from him LOL.
but seriously, 2 seniors and some other peeps were online le lor. and besides, its easier to communicate and do work this way. CONDUCIVE LEARNING ENVIRONMENT. =]
there's nothing wrong with it. and its good also luhh. we can be more efficient with it.
so anyway, I QUICKLY ALT-F4. then JL was furious. and was like: WHO SIGNED IN. WHOS THE CULPRIT. etcetc.
then he searched hi-and-low for that msn messenger thingy in the program files, taskbar etcetc. but obviously, cannot find it luhh.
he's seriously tooo behind these sorta stuff. =] we're 1 step ahead.
and kwanki was like: jl, it was just a dream... a hallucination...
he was not convinced. so he decided to CLEAN the whole taskbar and the whole com, trying to find proof of this scandal. haha. =x too no avail, but I got abit paranoid.
So in the end, Joseph PULLED THE PLUG. and the com shutdown.
I mean, its not as if, he search everything, he will find lah. but... aiyah. cant reveal all secrets here. later everyone know, then make use of the information to ...
hurhurs =x
no harm done.
had a gurltalk with wini today. then yea, according to wini,
mei you nu de pei bu shang nan de, zhi you nan de pei bu shang nu de.
yea. so deep luh can. =x but, aiyah. ><
thanks wini for listening lah. =]
>3<
yoo dont anybody, yoo'd rather be alone.
&i just wanna be with _.
oh, and _ is not yoo day. =.="
its anyone but yoo can! xD
0836pm
15MAYo6
gave her my present. first thing in the morning. just as I promised I would.
at first, she smiled. then she saw the earrings, then she was like: where yoo get der
then I was like: buy der... ... ... but the rose is made der.
anyways, she didnt say anything and she walked off.
aurghs.
the teachers were rather... toot today. hahas.
as in, PL was like he was talking about smtgsmtg jiao luh. then he forgot what jiao. I also forgot what jiao luh. : whatever jiao luh.
then winnie burst into laughter.
>.>
then after a few seconds, it started to sink it. then everyone was like =.="
hurhurs. =/ think dirrrtayy.
then the next one was mrs tay. she was talking about f(x) and so on. and she was talking about f of something, f of something... etc etc.
F of.
is like
F off
which is like
eff off
which is like
aww, yoo know lah!
and mrs tay was like: whats wrong! i've been to so many classes and you're the first class which told me that that's a bad word.
luhluh!
hmms. mr soh talked about how he saw us at fareast that day.
then he was like: did you guys bought anything? any slippers?
then it was like OMG! is he PSYCHIC! hahas. >< cause I really did buy a pair of really nice flip-flops luh.
mr soh also said, what, there got alot of ah lian shop. so suit us all. ....>.>
yeah. &he said that he was happy cause we were at orchard and that's good cause he say what rvayyians spend too many time at JEC, Westmall & JP, so go Orchard is good.
art was messyyy today. but fun! hahas. I <3 intuitive art.
cause its based on nothing.
nothing at all.
Bluetooth project still not done! =x at least I got something to lean back on just in case cannot finish homework. =x
but I really dont know what the big fuss is luh. cause I love doing it. and really, I dont mind. I really do like it.
and its like, they're all thanking me. =/ I mean, its ohkay. really. its not as troublesome as yoo all think luh. reallyreally.
LOL. which reminds me of the campaign speeches today. REALLYREALLY... reallyreally... REALLYREALLY.
its rather cute actually. hahas.
reallyreally.
waiting~
in vain
0815pm
14MAYo6
got this off my twin, Zhixin's blog.
Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. At the end, tag at least 5 people.
hurhurs. waiting again. so might as well do something.
xD
1. dayanna
2. Beixin
3. zane kor
4. chyiwei
5. seafood
6. WH didi
7. kwanki
8. tiffany
9. huangbei
10. winifred
11. you xin
12. swenty
13. kwanki
14. yisheng
15. Joseph
16. eunice
17. stella
18. JIE!
19. tanhz
20. SML [[ T.T ]]
1. How did you meet 14?
urhhh. forgot. through cca, I think.
2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
I will be safe at last.
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG! T.T hurhur. that'll be scandalous
4. Did you ever like 19?
nope. I never met her. I only thought of her cause of the bluetooth project.
5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
NO! >< I wont allow it! hahas.
6. Describe 3.
gets worked up very easily. xP
7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
urh. to me, no.
8. Tell me something about 7.
he's good. not good as in, good, good. but good as in cheating, hacks, those kinda good. =x
9. Do you know any of 12's family?
nope.
10. What is 9's favourite subject?
urhh... chinese? ><
11. What would you do when 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
OMFG. I'll wake up from the nightmare.
12. What language(s) does 15 speak?
Chinese and English, duh.
13. Who is 9 going out with?
=x
14. How old is 16 now?
4teen. heehees.
15. When was the last time you talked to 13?
10am around there bahs.
16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
her taste probably around mine bahs. so, its almost anything. hahas.
17. Would you ever date 4?
NO. im straight.
18. Would you ever date 7?
no freakinggg way. no offence =x
19. Is 5 single?
yepp. but I hope he succeeds in jio-ing my snr! xD
20. What is 10's last name?
Wong. or Rubbish. haha.
21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
NO. I dont believe in LAFS. and I detest those who do. no offence.
22. What school does 3 go to?
FMSS.
23. Where does 6 live?
somewhere in tampines, I think.
24. What is your favourite thing about 5?
he listens! he's sweet! haha! everything. cause he's my seafood mahs. =]]
*
waited for nothing.
clinging on to nothing.
but hope.
albeit a dim glimmer.
&in the end, I gave in. &slept.
was awaken by someone who threw stuffed toys and cushions at me. >.>
how considerate.
then dragged myself up, turned on the com. &stayed there.
until it was time to bathe, to eat etc.
talk about butt cramps. even my legs are aching. ><
aurghs. working on the science fair Bluetooth project thing. which took up the entire day. hurhurs. and I've not touched my pile of homework yet. great.
I'm not planning to do it tonight anyways. &luckily, I got a valid excuse not to do my homework. wakekeke xD.
=x went into maple for like half an hour, cc-ing to find an empty zombie map. to no avail. depressing really. its like I'm not even allowed to have fun.
trained for a pathetic 2% before getting fed up and logging out to continue on the Bluetooth project. which was terribly annoying. since I had to work with high resolution and on a a3 canvas.
so naturally, the com kept lagging. T.T
Noticed that JW was probably mapling for the entire day. lucky him. ><
but i cant and i cant. I keep telling myself that I cantcantcant give in to the temptation.
and I keep reminding myself that I'm different from them. and I have other commitments&piorities. and I cant allow myself to fall. not again.
haiiish. I'll keep on keepin' on I guess.
today was rather grey. The only thing that kept me alive was music. but after a while, it'll get old. =x hmmms
I 've yet to find a new bag! ><
[[ :'[ false hope. again. andImiss yoo so. ]]
I've not given my mummy her present cause I couldnt find a right moment to. And I felt rather guilty when wini told me how she has already prepared a meal for her mother. then Beixin told me how her mother was so happy today...
=x first thing in the morning I guess.
As long as she doesnt get up from the wrong side of the bed and find something else about me to complain about.
lets face it. I dont love her. I'm just recognising the effort she has put in to raise me up.
but I dont love her.
I wonder if it that's a sin. Cause I know it sounds wrong. Since I know my mother put in loads of time and effort into me and all... just to raise me up. they have my best interest at heart. they love me. they want the best for me
right-o
but love cant be forced. and I dont love them. how can I?
sure, they dont ill -treat me. they treat me well. so on so forth.
but I dont love her. I dont love them.
happy mothers day anyway.
1105pm
13MAYo6
ohkay, I admit. I've always been rather superstitious.
but its true. Today is really not my day
Rushed back from msia, and found out that I'm 20minutes late for the scienceprojectbluetooththingy meeting. So I rushed all the way to JE library. And found out that it was actually BOONLAY library.
aurgh. I'm so blurrr.
rushed there. but then there was a traffic jam etcetc, then thought had to pon dance lessons cause of the project. =x
and I felt so frustrated with myself and the rest of the world at that point of time.
When I finally met the group members, we discussed for like 10-15minutes, then I was released. hahas. then went to dance in the end. xD
but that was just a brief respite. =x
on the way, traffic jam again. followed by HEAVY RAIN. then there was this car accident, and more jam... then... AURGH ><
Rushed back for piano lessons then rushed home for tuition. SIANNNN.
not to mention the piles of work I've been pushing till today and tomorrow =x
><
haiish.
I still cant believe the fact that you're migrating to England.
HOW COULD YOU?!
nothing will ever stay the same. change is the only constant.
&just when I thought all was perfect, you had to go.
I regretted taking you for granted. this sucks. &now, I only have 2moremonths till you'll be gone
28thJUNE. I'll try to make it. =x
we hardly know each other. yet, we do.
strange.
and I dont want you to leave. not now. not ever.
you say things wont change since you can still d/l msn there. but what about msea? I dunno. and the time difference and everything?
dont go.
because of her
its ridiculous.
why leave everything behind for someone as worthless as her? why leave EVERYTHING? why leave me?
dont l e a v e me.
1122pm
12MAYo6
away from civilization. I dunno. Sometimes, being in Msia kinda feels like I'm being grounded or something. =x
cause the internet connection here is like 41.2kbps or something... whatever it is, its ULTRAslow.
&I can forget about going on MSN since the download will take 2h or so. :/ and im tired.
yea. and im away from my handphone. :`[ I miss civilization. hahas. :/
I did went shopping in the end. WHHEEEE! xD shopatherapy. heehees. Bought like 3 tops, 1
reallycool chain belt and a pair of black shorts.lala!
i realised that the salesgirls here dont know what 'halter' means. =.="
&i saw really nice espadrilles! but decided against buying them. cause they'll be like white china. its called white china right? :/
cause I doubt I'll wear it that often. then scared waste money only. and besides. I had to choose between the belt and the espadrilles or else no money mahh. &the belt was reallyreally drop-read gorgeous. and its cheap too. xD.
I think I over accessorize sometimes. i've a tendency to go overboard when it comes to these sorta things, I think. save me!
I'm so embarrassed luh. I usually turn up wearing something not that appropriate for the occasion. ><
aurghs.
got scolded by them too. weird, huh. its like AURGH.
I think its cause our fashion tastes are totally different.
they're followers. they let the clothes wear them. they buy weird, kiddy clothes. they dont accessorize. they are oblivious
&they arent used to my kinda clothes. so when they see what I bought, they think its a waste of $ and then they scold me.
or maybe they're just jealous cause I'm far better :] which is saying alot, since I'm just average.
or cause they're NOT openminded. siann.
dots. i hate shopping with them. cause they're so noob.
found out that my cousin maples! xD this is BIG. since I hardly know any malaysians who maples in B. and I never expected my cousins to know bout MS. since hardly any of them have a decent computer with proper internet connection. and even if they do, I doubt they play online games. haha. =x
well I think I got my obsession over MS under control. Just as long as I continue to bring myself back to reality. Alright alright. I can do it. I'll show THEM. everyone.
things-to-do:
1. science project thingyy.
2. mathematics project proposal.
3. ehh... lvl up?
4. survive tution.
5. survive next week!
that's about it. I cant remember anything else.
aurghs. personally I find the science project thingy rather rush. and scary. since they have a certain expectation of me. and its like OMFG. its pressure luh. ><
T.T
booored. Its too late to watch brokebackmountain now. and I'm too tired to re-read those magazines. =x besides, they're all like 2years old already luh.
oh wells.
this is horrible. only 35% of msnmessenger has been downloaded.
I miss my com. I miss my hp. I miss _.
i think I shall go take a leaf out of didi's book and go sleep.
0941nitenite
11MAYo6
dont say you understand, cause none of you do.
stop fricking asking for my account! how am I supposed to know whether you're gna hack or not. I'm not fricking gullible.
ESPECIALLY YOU LUH! hack my friend's account & wanna hack mine now. fricking git.
you people dont understand. and you guys will never do.
all you do is slack at home all day. you chiongers. you think everyone's like you. you not happy, go out mass defame, go out ks. you think you people are the only ones who have 3rd job friends?
Dont FUCKING CALL ME A LIAR bitch.
i never lied. you say you understand. but what do you know about me. UNDERSTAND WHAT. you're just someone I met online.
you have no idea. you dont study. like us. like me. you dont lead the life that I lead. That we lead.
that account is all I have. I'm not handing it over to people like you. you people make my life sound so easy. but you have no idea what kinda life a 5teen year old leads.
unlike you people, I dont maple the wholeday. I do have a life.
so fuck off.
tyvm, &stay out.
0954pm
my seafood is sososo sweet <3
heehees.
10thmay.
woke up like 6.30 to get a map. then chionged 10%! wooots! then went to chyiwei's house to watch chickflicks!
&I pissed myself off when I realised I was like 15minutes early. OMFG! I could have used the time to like chiong lo. since when Im chionging in a zombie map, every 5min can chiong at least 1%. which is like &.& hahaha...
yeaa... watched 13 going on 30. The dance was spastic luh. Kinda reminded me of the dance in FallOutBoy's Dance Dance MV. hurhur =.="
ahhh wells. then went SHOPPING AT FAR EAST!
Yea. Spent my $ on 77thstreetmembershipcard, another necklace, black tube, SHITTYbrown flipflops... &i dont remember anything else. hahas. Im such a spendthrift
yeppyepp. then it was like when we went up the escalator, we saw mrsoh coming down the escalator next to us... and we were like: MR SOH, MR SOH
and he looked at us haha. then was like so paiseh, smiling then waved then walkedaway! hahas. then we remembered how he said if we see him in Orchard, dont call him MrSoh cause then everyone will know he's a teacher or ...something. hahas.
=x
When to take more neos. Which were rather screwed. =x
and its like really AURGH. cause all she did was to buy a birthday present for her mum. then her mum wronged her. thought she was out with a boy. when she was with US all along. and cw& I wanted to call her mum to explain and all. since I was reallyreally with her.
her mother scolded her for going towning. what her mother didnt know was that her daughter was getting something for her
parents love. but they dont know how.
just like me.
Today
_ scolded me again. T.T
I mean it wasnt a big scolding ... it was a small. but its like. AURGH. it irks me luh.
I think the real reason why I'm starting to dislike her more is cause she's starting to resemble my parents. =/
LOL. got unsually high later on. Cause I was nervous for Chinese Oral. Dayy ponned cause she was "onthebrink of death".
WHICH REMINDS ME. I called HuiMin
yea, say it loud, say it proud.
turns out she didnt take the midnight flight to Australia cause she was off too msia for a family trip. hmm, or maybe she did go Australia, but then at 9am10thofMay, she came back to Singapore to go to Msia.
Interesting.
&she better not buy Beixin's bag. RAWH.
Personally, I think she was joking when she said she did.
Slap yoo in the face luh .CAT!
I bought mine first. I saw it first. So hands-off cat. xP
She saw it first. So PAWSOFF cat!
We bought ours first. We saw it first. So hands-off cat. xP
Its a good thing I never did get to experience shopping with you. <3
right. I wonder whether anyone has failed chineseOral before. cause I totally screwed mine up. He was like: ni shi bu shi hen jing zhang?
Then I was OMG-ing. T.T hurhur.
ahwells. whats overr is overr.
went shopping with beixin&chyiwei. SAW KERO. <3 haha.
this is what I'm giving my mummy tomorrow! haha. Mother's Day is tomorrow right?
hmm mother's day really should be on the day when a mother gives birth to her first child... but nevermind luh haha.
the silver sparkling thing is a pair of really nice earrings! haha =]]
Tomorrow going Msia for mothersday dinner. Then allowed to go shopping again!
hahas
<3
I think I'm crazy
I love yoo. but I dont know how. not how as in how to show it. but how as in well, how.
dont forget about late nights.
cause I wont.
I wanna leave. So I wont get hurt.
before I get too attached. Which I think I already am.
this is idiotic. I dont even know you.
But I know for one, I do love you. >3<
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about
though you say you love me
friends, is all we'll ever be.
loveyootoo.
us
0849nitenite
09MAYo6
Tell myself that inside shes ugly.
hurhurs. all my results are like. SOFARR A P A R T. Its like... I only get As and the rests are C6,D7,E8 and U. LOL.
I cant stand pressure. =x push me too hard, &I will push back.
WEISIN! how can you tell so many people my LINE! T.T SPOILER! SPOILER SPOILER! ><
see luh! by the time it was my turn to say my campaign speech... er no wait. even before that, my name was pushed two classes forward because of some special request. T.T you know I cant stand pressure de.
Then when it was my turn, everyone were like >< they were anticipating something good luh. and then I will get pressurized and all cause they have a certain expectation from me ler. RAWH. HATE THIS LUH.
Anyways, I started speaking. Then JL interrupted. naturally, I got a bit pissed and was like : WHEY! I'm speaking leh.
=x then before I realised I was being horribly rude, the sec3s appluaded and cheered. =.='
then I apologised luh. realised I was giving the lowersec a horrible impression of me.
Then yea, when I said I had all the qualities that the people before me have said -and more everyone were like wooooh. hahas. so bu yao lian luh me. yea. then I keep stressing on words like COMMUNICATION and SUPPORT and DISCIPLINE those kinda things to suan JL.
Then closed by: finally the most important reason why you should vote for me to be an ex-co is because ...
[[insert ShengDa's WOOOH]]
everything that he has, I dont have. and everything that he dont have, I have
Change is good. Vote for me. Thankiews. >3<
haha. that line rocks. =xx
I like shengda's line luh! he went up and said: hello, I'm ShengDa and as you know, I'm not bald.
Andrew was as usually... politically correct. =.="
Marcus was ... it was as if he was rapping lah. His hand actions & his siiiaaannnnned voice. he got 21 for literature. wth. T.T
Yisheng was : I admit that I'm ambitious. I'm aiming for HIS >>> [points to JL] position =]]
he got my vote. =]
his best line was: at least I dont giggle when I talk. he was referring to JL. and that was hilarious luh.
yepp.
Turns out that this year, it was the WEBDIV that did most of the suan-ing =]]
WOOOOTS. CHICKFLICKSmarathon and SHOPPING TOMORROW! this rocks lah!
about the chickflicksmarathon - its rather significant lah, cause its actually like watching all the chickflicks that we've known. that's impossible but I hope we do it lah. slowly, slowly one at a time, it doesnt matter. its like a summation [is there such a word?]of all the chickflicks... and its just. haha. never mind forget it. =x
SHOPPING. yes! I get to buy a newbag! haha di said he'll chip in abit =x ... which reminds me, I must prove SHENGDA WRONG. I HAVE NOT BEEN SCAMMED. and no, I'm not trying to convince myself. I'll get my 50bucks AT ALL COSTS.
even if it requires me to comb the entire SG for HIM.
i will get it. SHENGDA is so wrong ohkay. just because SHENGDA himself is a hacker and knows how a hacker thinks, doesnt mean he is always right.
MY FIFTY BUCKS.
lols~
Thankiews to those who voted for me. xD &those who helped me. &my supporters. haha. geels like I won a grammy or something. hahas. =x but ohwells. thanks anyways.
>3<
a once in a lifetime to suan jl. I felt I didnt do well enough. =x ahwells. I should have defaced my vote or something. then re-election. then I SUANNN MORE! =]
0756nites
08MAYo6
heehees.=]]
Chain Posts
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave acomment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, thereis no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it
#1. romantic
#2. witty
#3. has a good sense of humour
#4. LISTENS&talks.
#5. plays an instrument =]
#6. maples!
#7. has time for me!
#8. can support a highmaintenance gurl like me. xD
Mah victims:
Wenhui, Shu, theo, Emily, eunice, zihan, kahhan & JIE. hahas.
4thofMay. celebrated 123456. xD woooots.
as in 4th of May [5th month] 2006, 01:02:03am.
cause this day only comes once in my lifetime. its not coming for another thousand years. =]
<3
5thMay. cca interview thing. =/ I had to go last because I'm in L.
AURGHS. jl sat infront of me and everything. >.> I was like trying to ask weisin to come to the door or something to distract *ahemahem* someone. *winkwink*
yea. the interview was horrible. Cause I was abit incoherent hurhurs. And cause I feel that I very bu yao lian luh. yeahs. and I doubt I will ever be able to get to be there cause of my results.
Speaking of which, I failed 3subjects [[history, physics, chemistry]] in order of merit. hahas. yeah. I'm just glad I passed Chinese. ONTHEDOT. and I managed to pull my English up to an A. =]]
Right.6thMay. met this IRRITATING guy. who got my hp. number. calls me jie. which is like =.=". I DONT ACKNOWLEDGE THIS "didi". RAWH.
He calls me for the weirdest stuff.
Like...
him: hello, JIE ARH! didi here. why are you laughing, you SIAO ARH.
why? cause he has this WHINYHIGH voice. >.>
me: nothing, nothing.
him: ORH! just tell you that my mother need to use the phone so I cant use ler.
=______________="
right. the 2nd phone call:
him: JIE! train me!
he leeched me till 90%. DE CHUN JING CHI! HMMMMPHS.
me: dontwann. i just got off. Im sick of it ler.
him: *whineswhineswhines*
So in the end I went in luh. Then, I wanted to afk awhile... 10s later, HE CALLED.
haiish. if this continues, I'm putting Plan A into action. =]
heehees. I'm evil. but desperate times calls for desperate measures!
whathappenedtoyoo,Hashkor.
WOOTS.
Celebrating no-more-calaf lvl!
hahas. I know luh I know luh. still at a verynoob level. but ohwells, people no time to train mahhs.
7thMay.Chionged! haha. not really luh. But managed to get a 50% within 3hrs. which is REALLY good, thanks to di who gave me the map xD
Map4 somemore lehh.
yepp. when to HCISO [?, is HCISO right? =x] concert. Then felt so awkwardly out-of-place. cause apart from the grandpas,grandmas,children,uncle,aunties,daddy,mummies , the people are all from NYGH and TCH... those people luhh. =x then. yea. felt so out. Anyway, we got really squeaky chairs. =x heehees.
5minutes before the concert started, guess who called. YESH. HIM. that annoying lil git from hell. Expected me to TRAIN HIM AGAIN. oh yah! backstabbed me that very afternoon somemore. what massdefame and all that childish shit when I wasnt even invovled with YOURQUARREL. besides, you provoked my friends first. rawhhh.
yeas, and mindyourownbusiness can. I dont need you to matchmake me. TYVM.
TODAY! wooots.
hmm.
See, dayy scratched me!
I stood too close to the bitchfight =x
thats gonna leave a scar! hahas.
at least I got that blackleatherthingy now. =]]
but its kinda fascinating luh. the way it curves and =x
accidentally brushed against the side of the chairr near the artroom. those stone ones. =x
hahas. not as painful as the above one though. But TWICE in a day. LOLS.
My uniform got awfully dirty today too. Cause of the LINEDRAWING thing. I decided to study the TREEBARK. Then I sat down like a weirdo. So naturally, got shitty luh. Then YiSheng passed by and was like O.o, ZHIXIN?! =x hahas.
MR lee was like: Class, you've improved! I'm very happy!
LOL in the end, I still failed. T.T
No MR.Lee, Janson is right. The paper will tell whether we become road-sweepers or RICHBUSINESSMEN.
lala! I was telling him not to sarca her luh. >.> Then when I went up to take the chem paper, he was like: "The sky's the limit!" ... >.>
BUAIX.
aurgghs. >< campaignspeech tomorrow. Tiff's preparing. =x which is... kinda contradicting what I was thinking. but ahwells. =x
ohkiegtgsomeone'sonthephone.
0844nites
life&death.
03MAYo6
I'm not gonna play that stupid game
until it sweeps me off my feet.
yeahs. I shall not get caught up the that complicated web again. NOways. Cause prevention is better than cure. Cause I refuse to take the plunge.
and cause its probably me thinking too much again. You know, someone should replace my brains with plastic goo or something.
THINKING HURTS. because I think too much.
Seafood says I'm dying. =x hahas. I guess
BI GU DONG. jainatan refused to say it. :/ LOL... hmms...
failed horribly for physics. but yea, kinda expect it. Its the foreshadow of the many failures that are to come later. =x
I'm just glad I got an A for mathematics.
Art was ... I thought I would never be able to finish the whole thing. Cause I stupid-ly when to take THEBIGGBIIGG paper. then spent so much time on an eye >.> hahas. then in the end, I rushed abit more... and ^^
But ctc was like harr, why yoo paint until like that? so dramatic! then i shocked diao... =x
Murong actually quit art ler. Which surprised me. Cause she seemed like an anti-quitter. guess I was wrong.
I mean, I understand. Pressure and all that. But, that's just the part and parcel of life. Its not about whether I'm 'emotionally strong' or all that crap. Well, maybe for some. But I mean, if you're used to it, you're used to it. hahas. yeas.
I'm used to it.
hmms. Someone said something about keeping an open mind when talking to others during assembly today. &I guess you really need to heed his advice. I mean, bitching and whining about it wont change anything. The thing is, I think you're just sore after that incident. &im tired of all your rebelling. I mean for ___ is different. AURGH! right I shall stop before I start contradicting myself. just ignore what I just said luh.
cant afford to have anything I say to be used against me. thats stupid. haha.
poor ___ who's being harrassed by a psycho freak. just stand there and dont move kaess. oh wait, no. I think you should run. fast. hahas
<3
finally bought that booootiful black wallet! =]]
0841nites
02MAYo6
drain the pressure from the swelling
hurrmmmphs. I'm pissed and frustrated over ___
the bad one.
my goodness. I feel reallyreally bad and guilty cause I bit the hand which fed me.
I mean, when I first started, it was YS who funded me and trained me abit. He was my financial consultant... actually, I consult him for almost everything. because I was a noob.I still am. hahas ><
then it was him too, who help me do JUMPQUEST which are like superannoying. speaking of which, I'll be damn paiseh to ask him help me do lvl60jumpquest. >< aurghs.
Point is, he helped me alot luh.
then my ___, who initially was quite close to both of us... HACKED YS's ACCOUNT! fuck that bastard. hurrmmpph.
&thats not all, my so-called ____, tried to get my account to hack also! whatthehell luh. ____, yea right.
but im wayyy satisfied with my e math paper 1 luhh... I passed! ^^
then the whole day was like ___ing ___ haha. cause we both agreed, life is too sian. =/
luhluhluh. yeahs. all of 'em are BASTARDS kaess. they're not worth it. its not worth it to cry over someone who will never cry over yoo.
Sure, I may not be you and you think I can never understand the emotional pain [or physical? =x] pain yoo peeps are going through...
but ohwells. I cant help you all also lah. Only you can save yourself.
so be strong kaess.
<3
wahhs. he returned today. finally. but only for like what, 5minutes? then I had ta go. this sucks.
aurghs. bangbangbanghead on da table. =x
Seafood! haha... since ni dushu, wo ye du. wo men liang ge jiayou bahs. xD
I saw this drop-dead GORGEOUS wallet at 77th street today. =]]
Mustget.mustget.mustget. =x
0841nites
01MAYo6
I need I N S P I R A T I O N
aurghs. art. >< thinkthinkthinkthink.
=x still thinking.
I'm so dead. Tomorrow.
Spent almost the whole morning, looking up at the white ugly ceiling, waiting for inspiration. hurhurs. kindaa stupid. then went to chiong. or tried to chiong. until he tricked me to chiong for him. >.> &being the nice person that I am, I did. =x
then in the end ___ chionged faster then me
which is like depressing.
alrightalright. I supposed I should say congrats luh like a good ___ =]
but really. HOW YOO CHIONG SO FAST! OMFG T.T
I need to get a life!
&fast too.
then hmmm... must apologise to yoo. cause yesterday dragdragdrag cause I was watching TheSweetestThing. &I feel so insensitive. cause you were obviously tired ler. And I still dragdragdrag until I think yoo fell asleep rights. paiseh ><
yea. and must get wellsoon kaess! dont dragdragdrag. GO SEE A DOCTOR! =x
IhavenoideawhyIjustwrotethose. cause you dont read my blog at all.
I saw PCD's Beep MTV yesterday and OMFG! its sooo hott haha. <3 PCD. ^^
Yea, I would totally get the black one if it had the strappy back too... but aiyah, its kinda ... =x
cause those kinda leotards only look nice on them. I mean, they're thin and oh-so-...bodies =/
aurghs. Point is, I dont have the body to wear those.
&that is sad.
I mean, even if I do, I dontknow how to pull it off. how arh how arh. I mean, I doubt we can wear halter de. =/
Dunn know luh!
I WANN A STRAPPY LEOTARD. hahas. =x
thinking hurts.
0551MAYDAY.